are you ready?

My close friend's mom had passed away this morning. It was a devastating news although she's been sick for a while a ready. I know her well as i frequently visited the house before for sleep over and she would be really excited with whatever stories we have told her. I often bought her some 'keropok keping' (fish cracker) from Terengganu as that what she's always requested for, well i don't mind. The thing about ready is that Kak Jan and i did talk about how ready she was for her to really go. Like totally gone from your life. The replied that i got was, "You shouldn't ask that question". Letting go when you really needed them the most, letting go when you realise you're lonely from human touch or care and letting go the one most dear to you. I always curious how people would deal to this situation as i haven't with myself either. I had once dreamt about my dad passed away, well i think recently when i am here. It feel so frustrated and hurt like you don't have anywhere to go. I felt suffocated and confused and keep asking myself who should i turn to after this. Then, i realised it was a dream and i feel back to normal. But somehow later that day, it still hits me. Having said that now I'm a-thousand-km away from home, i realise i will happen to me in no time. Location wise, I might not able to be there when it happens and what should i do? huh

The truth is only the person involved would know how it feels. Maybe the after effect would make it worst. If the support system, the family bonding is strong then it helps a lot. But what i worried is the ugly truth after the lost. People might hang in to you because of the significant person, but when he/she's gone, others will slowly gone and letting go the support system as well. That is when the reality sucks a big time. Things happened, people come and go and you're still there but i would say should we go back to the Creator this time. i think this is the boundary that we have as a muslim. A Creator who knows whether you're strong and ready to accept the reality. To be able to achieve that is one of the test. He won't test you if you're not ready, but whatever He does for sure he knows better. Hanging onto the Mercy and Grace of Allah. It may seems like it's easier said than done but it has to be done.

إِنَّا لِلَّهِ وَإِنَّا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعُوْنَ

'From Allah we come, and to Allah we return'